Oodles of Noodles

I don’t want what I want to want. I want to want, long for, but I don’t. I’ve tried to force it and wait for it, but still nothing. It’s ok with me though because I don’t want it. You want me to have it, but I think I’m better off without it. For some reason I still want to want it, even though I don’t want it. I don’t want to need someone to make me feel whole. I don’t want to value someone more than I value myself and my own opinions and ideas. I don’t want to need someone to support me through thick and thin. I want to be strong enough to get myself through tough times. I don’t want someone to need me to make them feel complete. I don’t want to be someone’s crutch. I don’t want to not want kids. I don’t want to feel bad for not wanting what I feel like I should want. I don’t want what you want and have. I want everything, anything, else.